I hate to scold my child, but still I do..

I opened my eyes little wider, hid my smile, looked at him strictly said,’ you cannot put your shoes in refrigerator’. He looked shocked, kept looking at me and I can feel that he did not like that. He go from there and started doing something else. This was first time I did this. I never shout at my son but yes my tone does get strict. Today when I looked at him angrily, I got fear that he might hate me.

I went to room, stood in front of mirror and did same again. I looked horrible. I am his mother and he should not be scared of me. I felt I am a bad mother and cried. I went back to him and see what he was doing. He was again trying to put shoes in refrigerator. As soon as I saw him he hid the shoes behind him. Now, I know these are age appropriate behaviour and I should never shout or scold. At same time, I know that I need to be little strict with him. I need to follow discipline. I try to do what I preach him. I donot fight, donot shout, never throw things no matter how tired I am. He follows this. He is just 2 and he knows after eating He had to put his utensils in sink. He is obedient child but then age strikes most of time. I enjoy it but there is time when he refuses to listen.

Dont put your shoes in refrigerator. Donot write on walls, donot cry if you are not able to move table.

I mean how can he move a heavy table?? He cannot and that troubles him most.It troubles him that he cannot fold a bed sheet. It troubles more when he cannot drive a car. He doesnot want to go for bath and then donot want to come either.

I am okay with tantrums but sometimes want to be little strict.Want to know everything cannot happen what he wants.

I still get strict and scold him when he does something wrong because at the end of day I am her mother and it is okay for me if he dislikes me little but it will not be okay if he learns bad habbits..

I know when he will grow things will become more tougher if I would not set his behaviour right from beggining.

It makes me sad when I scold him he comes to me and say softly “muma muma” with his innocent smile. But I am helpless..I just need to learn more skills to hide my smile while scolding him.